♥Monday, July 24, 2006
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IN LOVING MEMORY OF NG JOO CHEW.(16/7/2006)acheli..i duno how to start tis post.let just start from tat fateful night.16/7/2006..tat dae was chen chang burfdae.as usual.no one invited us.nvm.i rem it was a sundae yeah..thn at 2300,ng shu called.called to sae si shu had a sudden heart attack outbreak.send to hospital A&E.sae e doc cant detect his blood pressure n pulse n asked every of his sibling to come down.there's only a 30% hope that he will survive.suddenly i had a bad feelin..feeling he wouldn't survive.got changed n rushed down.on e wae there.dad assured me he will b alright n his sixth sense is usually correct.i tried to comfort myself with tat too.but i keep havin this bad feeling.whn i reach there,i got off first while dad went to park his car.too late..too late..once i reach,e doc came out..sae his brain is dead n heart stopped beatin..breakdown.i dun belive.i dun believe.jux 30 mins ago he was alrite de..how can he die in jux 30 mins?!?!thn we wait..e doc sae his main artery to e heart is severely blocked n no matter how much chemicals they used..they could not wash awae e blockage..thn e doc sae we wait..wait to see his body..i cried n relax a bit..whats worse has yet to come..joc,ni pa mei,ni pa,ng su,tai pa,dad,uncle paul,qi shu,qi shu mei was there.we duno how to break e news to neinei..so they sent ni pa n ni pa mei home first.thn tell her e news so she will not do anitin silly.off they went..went in..e corpse..his corpse..couldnt believe he's dead..lying down there motionlessly..everyone break down..i guess me n joc was e worse..i rarely see dad cry..but i could see his tears welling n dripping..thn wait..call tai pa mei n they all to fetch neinei cum down c his corpse.there's only 2 hours..so..while we were still crying,neinei called..she's crying lyk nobody business..eh thn,after some time,neinei came..she was hold by joc n tai pa mei..once she entered e room followed by chen chang n doughlas..she ran to e bag n broke down..e sight was..horrible..made me broke down once more..u could see cc very depresss...cux tat dae was his burfdae as well..imagine takin e blow..hais..after much strugglin n pullin..neinei was carried out n sitted in a wheelchair..mostly everyone was okae le..discuss bout his funeral n went home..
for e dae..all cried..all depress..but its sth we could not prevent..hais..
next dae..went to sch with swollen n red eyes..no mood at all..still cant take e fact tat he's dead n cried..mrs firdouse saw my eyes n sent mi home..thn blah..mum came to fetch me..went to blah n blah..went home n cried again..later at night..went to his funeral..red eyes everywhere again..neinei calm down le..see his picture i cry again..hais..spent e nite there till 12 am plus..saw mingest..dad dunwan me stayover..nxt mornin not gg sch..so went there early early round 8am wif meimei n dad..todae sending him off..cc n dough n joc appears to b okae le..thn cum e time..e ritual again..again we cried..thn have to carry his coffin to go cremate le..neinei refuse to leave..she broke down again n ran to his coffin..everyone cant stand e sight n cried..thn her friends carried her to e flat..walked with e van..everyone was weeping..thn went to e bus..went off to cremation..thn..thn..after ritual..he was sent to cremate..all cried n screamed n shout whn we saw his coffin dropping into e incinerater.nv to b back again..cried all e wae n had a hard time calmin down..thn blah..went home n relax..nxt dae went sch n dad went to collect n settle his ashes..thats all..
i can still rem..still see e image of last time he plae wif me n mingest..take me n meimei to tai pa house n plae.scolded me whn i littered.but as we slowly grow up..we drifted..but we still tok n i still rem him as humourous n a joker that loves drinking.i still rem whn i go to maket he willjoke wif me n joke ard..now..its not possible at all le..not possible..how vulnerable is life..n e last time i saw him was last year i suppose?i haven even take a good look at him tis year n he jux went awae lidat..e only look i took was his corpse..a dead wan..
my uncle..u may have die..but all of us will still b loving u n holdin u in our eternal memories..
love,
kai ting.
finally let out wat i wana sae..feel relieved..at least tis is a wae of rememberin u..
DBSK is love @ 11:08 PM